"No more excuses"...

So, Diana said that the one thought that kept re-occurring with Lyndzee's death was "no more excuses". She calmly told me that this was for me. She said that Lyndzee wanted me to say the prayer at her funeral. The PRAYER!!! I freaked out for about 3 days!! I haven't said more that 6 prayers publicly since I got teased in church when I was 9!! I had a huge phobia that I was going to mess up and get teased all over again!
I said a little prayer that Lyndzee would be there for me, because after all, it was her idea. I cried up to the prayer, and throughout the prayer, and the second that I was finished, I was fine! I felt a calming that I have rarely felt in the past. I knew I was progressing and now had "no more excuses!"
About a month later, Diana came to me again and requested that I do Lyndzee's Temple work for her. What an honor!! I felt so blessed that she would pick me to do this!!
I have waited patiently now for two whole years. Waiting for her to give me the things that I need to accomplish this blessing. She has only asked me once how it was going, whereas I responded, "How IS it going?"
I finally connected A to B and realized that she was waiting on ME! The whole time I've been waiting on HER! (Disclaimer...I have never done anything like this before, so I didn't really know the steps to getting this done).
I went to the church history center, where a really old gentleman was sitting behind a desk, waiting for someone to talk to. I mentioned why I was there and that I only had about 20 minutes before my kids would be home, so we kind of had to hurry.
He started by giving me this huge presentation on how things work while on the internet. You know, how to search, how to google information, how to GET ON the internet, and so forth. As politely as I could, I said that we now only had 12 minutes left. He then fumbled with the land line for 5 minutes, when he finally gave up and pulled out his cell phone. He dialed 3 wrong numbers before he looked up the right number and finally got on the phone to call over to the temple to ask if I could seal her to her parents while her parents were still alive...I don't want to seal her parents to the kids at this time, I just want to help her to get her own endowments taken care of!!!
After hanging up the phone, he said that he didn't know that that was what I wanted to do, and then continued by picking up the phone again to call and ask what paperwork I needed to make this happen.
I finally said that I had 1 minute left before my kids would be home from school, so he said to get on a certain website and it would tell me what to do from there.
That was easy...It only took 20 minutes for him to figure it out. Not bad!!
So I got home, got on the website, found her name, got on the wrong link, called the help line, got the sister on the line very flustered, suggested I do what she had done so we would be on the same page, (deep sigh), found what we needed, and finally realized that, after 2 years, it was my responsibility all along!! I let Lyndzee down, I let Diana down, I let myself down.
All things necessary are now complete to go through the temple on behalf of Lyndzee Lurene Robbins, age 11. I think I will go on April 15th...what would have been her 13th birthday.
Oh man, I'm gonna need a lot of tissues!!